| This house is full of ears but I can't talk to anyone |
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| what remains of myself dies today |
[Tuesday,
August 7th 2007 @ 3:40pm] |
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So yea' once again. I'm still alive. the summer is almost over. it's hard to believe. it's fucking august and shit. it's been a decent one though. not as sweet as last summer. but fun none the less. well the concerts have been fun. the parties have been fun. nikki moved back up so i got to hang out with her. that was neato beans. but at the same time it's been a lonely one to. i've been single for like over a year now. and i've spent the past 2 chasing ghost. maybe it's time. i kinda...maybe? have something going on right now. or..more. i don't know. i have 2 very different but very similar situations going on right now. but i don't see anything solid coming from ether honest. complicated stuff kids. i'm going to new york this month. and next week i'm going to see Dreamtheatr in concert. maybe going to ozzfest. september holds the Black Dahlia Murder, Red Chord, and Cannibal Corpse. While October holds Machinehead, Arch Enemy, Smashing Pumpkins, Everytime I Die, Poison the Well, and Underoath. maybe more but i fucking forget. so yea' word up bitches
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| in regards to myself |
[Sunday,
July 1st 2007 @ 5:19am] |
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hey, just letting everybody know i'm still alive and all that shit. been working alot. going to sounds of the underground on the 19th and warped tour on the 28th. remember ...uhhh yea' people get ahold of me and shit. peace
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| meh |
[Tuesday,
April 10th 2007 @ 3:19am] |
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everyday serves as a constant reminder....
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[Saturday,
October 7th 2006 @ 2:22pm] |
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the final verdict? fuck livejournal. i'm out
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| Friends Only!! |
[Wednesday,
May 18th 2005 @ 11:21pm] |
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On the phone with Jessica <3 |
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Comment to be added!
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[Monday,
May 2nd 2005 @ 8:38pm] |
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Ben Folds - Mr.Jones Pt. 2 |
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long ass quiz shit ( Read more... )
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| Another Boring Day, In a Boring Town, That Same Old Crowd, That Drags Me Down... |
[Thursday,
April 14th 2005 @ 6:40pm] |
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ATTENTION TO READERS OF MY JOURNAL THE COMMENTS HAVE REALLY BEEN SLACKING LATELY *besides Jess* do I not comment to you kids enough or do you just not read my journal?
Anywho, today I went and got my drivers permit again. They told me that I can just go get my liscense whenever which is cool. i started a bank account, savings and checkings. I have a $130 in my savings, and $131 in my checkings. I got the checking account so I could get a debit card. It should be here in about a week. Around when I start working I think. And I kept $70 for myself to spend. I ordered me and Jess some new plugs. They should also be here in a week or so. :D which is groovy. And I bleached my hair on account of I want to dye it dark brown. But it just turned my roots super blonde, and the rest is dark brown. So the brown dye I got will hopefully turn the rest browner and the roots the right color.I aslo purchased a disposable camera :D Which is for pictures to take for Jessy. I MIGHT keyword, MIGHT go to a party at Randy's this weekend. Not sure, I'd prolly rather just stay home and talk to Jess on the phone. That's if Miss Busy Pants is home. Not sure if i'm doing anything tomorrow, think I need to go talk to joe again see exactly when i start working. Well I don't really have anything else to say at the second, accept I miss you Jess. I love you dearly.
~Darrell Ames
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| i'm leaving on a jet plain... |
[Saturday,
April 9th 2005 @ 4:26pm] |
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eh could be a better one |
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some awful shit on the comp |
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well i'm leaving in like 7-8ish hours. so i don't really know what to say. i'm gonna miss this place. and of coarse jess. i'm all packed already. X_o *le sigh* i'll update again when i'm in MI. later fools.
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| I never knew we were living in a world with a mind that could be so small |
[Tuesday,
April 5th 2005 @ 3:22pm] |
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The Smashing Pumpkins - The End is the Beginning is the End |
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Well a few days ago something amazing happened and i'll leave it at that. I'm leaving Sunday morning...like at 12:45 a.m. so Sunday morning or Saturday night whatever you call it. Jess made me a new icon, i lovers it. :) we have matching ones, but hers has pink and says her screen name. mine is too long for the icon. We're going to the mall in a bit, which means Chik-fil-a and maybe a new belt buckle for me. because i need one quite bad. I went and picked up 100 bucks my mom sent me. It was from what my grandpa owed me so i don't have to pay it back. *April 2nd is an important day Jess SHOULD know why* I guess all the snow in Michigan is gone. Which is good because i hate that shit with a passion. And we've been seeing alot of Mike lately, but he stole EVERY picture of Jess i had out of my room. And he needs to bring them back because it pisses me off. EVERY picture i have but the ones in my wallet. I'm not sure what else to say. OH concerts i might go to.
Sat, 05/07/05 08:00 PM Green Day Grand Rapids, MI Wed, Grand Rapids, MI Wed, 04/27/05
07:00 PM Alkaline Trio
Intersection, Grand Rapids, MI Mon, 05/02/05
06:30 PM Lamb of God
Orbit RoomGrand Rapids, MI Wed, 05/04/05
07:00 PM System of a Down
Saint Andrews Hall
Detroit, MI As I Lay Dying - Throwdown
Monday April 25th
Intersection Grand Rapids Sat, 04/23/05
05:00 PM Finch
Intersection
Grand Rapids, MI Find Tickets
and maybe a DevilDriver show. Well that's all for now.
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| for an april fools joke, you look awfully serious, then to break the news, it's not the 1rst anymore |
[Saturday,
April 2nd 2005 @ 3:15pm] |
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you know...as much as i've heard it's going to happen. it never really sank in till now. i'm going back to michigan. i almost was leaving today on a tractor with jess's uncle or something. but i called my parents and they got me a ticket. i leave next sunday at 12:45 a.m. and i'm not ready to leave. i don't want to leave. but i am.... back to michigan. back everything i left. and without the one thing i need by my side. who knows...maybe jess will be able to come spend the summer with me. i hope and pray that she will. so we can be together for our one year anniversery in july. and ...so we won't have to go so fucking long without seeing each other. but i already know what it's like to be apart. and i hate it. i hate feeling the lonlieness when i'm in michigan. the need to be with her. some of you probably are thinking i'm an emo sissy or some fucking shit. but you know what. i really don't give two shits what you might think. i'm in love...and i'm loved back. and that's all that's going to get me through this. because we'll be together again one day. but i just wasn't prepaired to leave....and i'm not. i will hopefully get my job at nibbles once i return to michigan. my mom is going to go talk to joe *the owner* and i'm gonna try to quit smoking. so i can save even more money. but...i need to cherish this last week here. not take anything for granted *s/p?* and not let us get into any stupid fights. because it's not worth it. especialy the last week i'm here. i've been here only 3 months. and i've seen us through our 6th,7th, and 8 month anniversery's. but i won't be here for 9..or 10. who knows if we'll be together for 11 and 12...hopefully. i hope jess can finish up school as quick as possible. because i need to back with her. here or in michigan whatever. it doesn't matter. as long as i'm with her. so if you have something ignorant to say about how i'm being a wuss, or how you don't think it can fucking work don't tell me. because i don't want to hear it. and i won't listen. i know it can work. it's worked so far. we weren't with each other for our 1rst,2nd,4rth, and 5 month anniversery. so half of our dating time has been spent with each other in person. and the other half has worked. so i'm not gonna let this ruin us. or tear us apart. i trust her. and i trust myself. i'm not the type to cheat on anyone. so i'm not sure what else there is to say really. but i love jessica lorraine rodriguez. i do. i love you jess and i want to be with you always. and you will always be on my mind and in my heart.
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| You Wasted Life, So Why Won't You Waste Death.. |
[Thursday,
March 31st 2005 @ 5:41pm] |
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Finaly got a photo copy of my i.d. to send in with my tax shit. I have one of my checks already but i can't fucking cash it anywhere. alot of stuff is going on lately, but i hope it'll all work out for the best. X_o and i realized how much i still love Toy Story haha i know how lame am i? Finaly saw Toy Story 2 it was funny X_o. AND i've just been hit with the news that one of my favorite comidians Mitch Hedburg was found dead this morning, died of a heroin overdose. FUCKING DRUGS QUIT KILLING GOOD COMIDIANS :( now i'm sad. X_o if you haven't seen mitch hedburg's comedy i suggest you check it out. X_o That's the end of my journal...r.i.p. mitch you funny drug addict fucker.
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| laying in the dirt again, and then it starts to rain, drowning in a puddle of mud.. |
[Sunday,
March 27th 2005 @ 11:41pm] |
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i've fallen so many times, and always managed to get back up
i've given away my heart, piece by fucking piece and i don't have anymore left
i've done everything i've alway thought was right, and even some i knew was wrong
so put me to sleep, and just make this feel alright,where i dream is where i live
where i dream is where everything is perfect, but i've dreamed all i can dream
now i sleep to an empty brain, this fucking puddle of emotion just relents and starts to drain
i've fallen again, but this was the fall that broke my legs, shattered my kneecaps, and toes
how can i pick myself back up, when my legs just can't work, so i'll stay here in the dirt,
bent and broken, hopeless and lost, and i'm sorry for what i've done, and i deserve what i got,
i love you's just not enough, just pull out your gun and finish me with one last shot
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| 8 months |
[Monday,
March 21st 2005 @ 2:24pm] |
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JESSY HAPPY 8 MONTH ANNIVERSERY! I FUCKING LOVE YOU! WOO! alright that's all i have to say for now.
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| You would kill for this , Just a little bit. |
[Sunday,
March 20th 2005 @ 1:43pm] |
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Let's see what's been going on the last few days. Well umm I think it was Friday me and Jess went with Nicky to blockbuster and rented Saw and Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. We watched Saw that night. It was the second time i've seen it. I didn't mind though. It's a good enough movie. It's not scary or anything. But it's kind of twisted and fucked up. Then Saturday I woke up informed I had to stay home by myself all day again which blew ass. I pretty much played Super Smash Brothers and tried to fix Jess's computer. haha and started watching MIB 2.*men in black* But they finaly got back and we left for nicky's to watch Harold and Kumar. It was kind of stupid I thought. Some of it was funny, but alot of it was lame. Just another typical stoner movie. Today We're supposed to be going to H.E.B. which means groceries, which means food. OH and yesterday was my grandpa and grandma owens 50th anniversery. I called them, my grandma was excited, and my grandpa was being kind of dick. Just bitching about how he hates TX, well fuck. I hate Michigan. So THERE heh jesus i'm bored. Jess needs to get out of bed. Alright, i'm out of stuff to say. later fools.
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| Was it worth it? |
[Wednesday,
March 16th 2005 @ 2:59pm] |
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Alkaline Trio - Hell Yes |
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Well Saturday,Me and Jess went to the show at the time out lounge with Nicky, and Annie. And umm some girl I don't know. We got in towards the end for free.Hardcore dancing makes me giggle. It's fucking stupid as all shit. Punching and kicking that poor air. WHAT DID IT DO TO YOU I ASK!? Umm we haven't really done anything super since. Been playing alot of Tony Hawk - Underground. Well I got my taxes form. And it came with 50 bucks in it from my grandpa. So me and Jess went out for chinese last night. Stupid John broke everyones favorite boot mug. GRRRR I LOVED THAT MUG. And today we're gonna go get Mexican food at that Paulita's right by the house. To see if it's any good. Well I suppose that's all I have to say right now. So later.
~Darrell
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| look me in the eyes, and tell me what you see....a broken man, with a glare of ice.. |
[Saturday,
March 12th 2005 @ 9:06pm] |
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Well John's over right now. And Jess left with the mom to go pick up Erica. within a short amount of time I think we're leaving to go to the show at the time out lounge with nicky. To hang out outside on account of no money to get in. UH I was walking to the store to get some cigarettes alittle bit ago...and I saw this big ball of fuzz by a newspaper. and on the way back I stopped and looked at it. It was a dead cat holding on to the newspaper with it's eyes and mouth wide open. Twas fucking gross. I'm not sure I have anything else of intrest to say at the moment. OH THE NEW LAYOUT IS FINISHED AND IT'S GREAT! Thanks Jess, I love you. :)
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Well this is it. From what I could find on me and Jess's photobuckets. Some of my favorite pics from when I was in Laredo X_o :(. Some of the best memories.( 
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